Meet A New Madhoo Who Is Determined To Prove Her Detractors Wrong. "I Know I Am Good"
She came into her own as the Roja girl; and expectations soared as Roja became a megahit. But, as luck would have it, Madhoo has still not found a firm footing in Bollywood. There is a lot more to Madhoo, the actress and her talent needs to be tapped. For, whenever she has been called to perform, Madhoo has been noticed. Right now it seems, however, the Roja girl is out to prove in her worth with determination..
Q : After Roja there were a lot of
expectations from you? Do you feel that you have come up to those
A : I am very happy with the way I am placed today. People expected a lot of me immediately after Roja, but it did not happen. Basically it is male dominated film industry. One does not get heroine oriented subjects or a film like Roja which revolved around me. you need bold makers to make a film like that. If I wait for a film like that to come my way, I probably would be doing just one film a year, or probably not even that. Such films are not made often. I do not want to sound as if I am boasting, but I can act well. I think I am a good actress and I have often been doing justice to whatever roles I have been given. People who know me, the public, the people in the industry feel that I am good and I have been appreciated in whatever I have done so far.
I am doing all kinds of films and if you ask me on what basis I select my films, it will not be a fair question. Presently, I am also doing a film called Yashwant with Nana Patekar. Now that is a film where one might except some good performance. It is not that I don't perform well in my other films. But I am sure Yashwant is a film that will be appreciated.
Q : But isn't it true that when there is
Nana, the others tend to get overshadowed?
A : Nana is a brilliant actor and brilliant person. He even helps you to perform well. now, my challenge lies in a film like that which has Nana Patekar. Knowing that he is going to be critically acclaimed, knowing that he is going to get such so much of appreciation, I should strive for such performance, so that people say that she was equally good if not better. Madhoo has matched him or she has been better in a scene.
I would rather work with the greatest so that I may probably be better than them. One can never know how good or bad one is unless there is competition. If you are running alone you will never know if you are first or last. Only when you run with people will you know if you are first or last. And even if you come last, there is nothing to be sad about. You can always work hard and probably beat them in the next race. But you have to take the challenge. It is not unhealthy competition.
Q : When You enact a role, do you feel
kind of drained out by the end of the day?
A : I feel very, very alive. it is like tapping your heart. You are crying but still it drains you emotionally. it gives you a very different feeling. Basically, you should be able to switch off and on, but with me, part of it tails over.
The Character you see on screen is different from the Madhoo after pack up. But somewhere after working day in and day out, the two people merge and you don't really know when the real you is there. Like, sometimes, before the camera it is the real you who is probably doing a particular scene. But sometimes, sitting between friends you are still acting. If you analyze yourself, you find that you have lost the difference.
As a person I have grown in confidence and a lot of it could be attributed to my being in the profession and doing things independently
Q : Would You call Yourself a director's
A : I feel I can perform any role that is given to me, be it serious, comedy, anything, but I am always better when the director knows what he wants from me. Quite frankly, I am not doing one or two films at a time. I am doing quite a few films, so the director should know exactly what intensity he wants from me. The better the director, the better will be my performance.
Q : Coming to your south Indian films, how
come you have given better performance there?
A : I was introduced by K Balachander, the legend, I worked with Mani Ratnam, K Raghavendra Rao, i.e. different directors from different schools. I like to think I am a director's artist. I won't say that the directors with whom I am working here are bad. I think the approach to film making is different in the South. it is not only me. Ask any of my colleagues. All of us are doing it equally well or not so well. In the South, I have worked in Tamil, Malayalam and Telugu and I have also worked in one Kannada film.
Q : Do You have any bitterness of grudge
A : Today, I have absolutely no bitterness or grudge against anyone. I am happier than I have ever been in my life before. Everything I attribute to experience. Anything going slightly bad input down to experience. Today, I am a better person, more understanding I guess. But I am not bitter. Even if someone has hurt me, I am not going to turn my face away from the person if I see him. I am going to be nice to him. I have nothing to complain about. If probably, I was still in the dumps today, then I would have been bitter. God has been kind to me.